shh....

i love being secretive and mysterious

sometimes i wish i can tell people my stories

but i just cant

and i dont know how to

and i'm loving it

makes me closer to my Lord =)

it's weird

although i have quite a few of friends

and a number of best friends

but i cannot tell them my every single stories

i have to keep most of them inside

and that special stories are only for HIM to listen =)

i am good at putting words together

in writings or just in my heart

but when it comes to blurt them out

i can feel my tongue resisting them

and so i just stay quite

and do the talking inside

which i know very well

HE is listening to my every single word

and He understands though the words are not in their complete sentence =)

O Allah

i put my forehead down

my nose is touching the ground

in my most humble position

i cry to you, i beg for Your pardon

thank You for letting me

having You as my only source

to complain

to tell stories

to keep my secrets

shh...