I am a mother!

Assalamualaikum!

Remember my last post? It was about a year ago. And it was just an update on my latest status as a wife. That was all i wrote in 2014 haha. Then this website became a site filled with spider webs (afterall it is a WEBSITE)

And now i am writing to update my current status! I'm a mother now can you believe that? My left hand is rocking my baby to sleep and my right hand is typing for this long abandoned blog. My husband said i should start writing again. I can start off with something rubbish and boring like this and then slowly reaching my old standard or even better.

Since i am still in my long holiday and waiting for my extended leave to get approved so yeah writing is what i should fill my time with.

So far i am getting better at handling baby. So much exciting things to learn and so many interesting experiences. When i told my mom that i am extending my maternity leave, my mom told me not to stay in maternity leave forever. Haha.. Well i am inclined to that mind you. It is hard hard for me to juggle between roles. It is even harder when i work 90km from home. I better not start whining on that because it will bring us nowhere hihi

I havent write for so long and i dont know where to start. Please excuse my broken language too. And if my writing is too complicated for you please leave this site ASAP. I am not going to be responsible for god-knows-what might come to you.

All right lets get back to bussiness which is not even a bussiness hoheh

I gave birth to my little son on the 24th of November 2014. Well November is officially called Lovember for me because it is a month full of love. It is a month of our anniversary, my hubby's birthday and my dear son's birthday. Back to my story, my son was born 2.5kg  on Monday, at 9.35 am (the time i was born as well- waktu dhuha). It was a normal delivery, but on induction. Because i started leaking liquor about 3 days before delivery. So i was induced once. Was about to get induced for the 2nd time when the doctor found that my cervix has opened 3cm and my liquor was gushing out like crazy upon vaginal examination. 3 hours later i was sent to the labour room with cervix opening around 6 cm and an hour and a half later i gave birth to a cute little baby. Alhamdulillah the pain was not long for me and i had my husband and my senior in the labor room, conducting my delivery.

So right after delivery my baby had to be sent to neonatal ward for further assessment and to complete his   antibiotic course. Because i had a leakage prior to delivery, my baby might get some infections inside the womb so he was given antibiotic through me. A day later he was discharged and we brought him home. Beforehand, i had my first sesi berurut bertungku semua tu. I really enjoyed the pampering i had on my body hehe.. The first night when my baby came home, he cried throughout the night. I had no sleep at all phew..i thought my breastmilk might not be enough so he cried out of hunger. Little that i know that his stomach was actually too small and needed frequent feeding. Due to my lack of knowledge, i agreed to my mom to give him formula milk *reluctantly*...insyaAllah i'll write more on breastfeeding in the next entry. Its a pretty long story haha

I stayed in terengganu with my hubby n my mom for 9 days and then we flew to nilai, my hometown. We went back to KT after my confinement period ended. It was tough at first to live with the baby without my mom's help. But i coped well alhamdulillah. We named our son Hariz. Yup Hariz je. So i wont waste my time writing his name in the future haha and afterall we tend to call for short name kan..

Hariz is going to be 3 months old in less than 2 weeks. And i have left my old self for almost 3 months jugak. I can say that i have lost myself, i have no me-time, i am a new person. Haha mcm scary je kn. i miss going to spa, shopping n dating with husband but at the moment memang kena lupakan keinginan2 itu. I even sacrificed my half year job performance by extending my maternity leave just to put my 100% commitment into my new little family. I also started talking in weird language and thinking in different wavelength besides having new interest in parenting and baby stuff. I'll write more about those things. Stay tuned heheh.. 

Oh man..It took hours for me to finish this entry because i had to entertain hariz in the middle. Till the next post

    

                                     Thats me multitasking. And thats my new workstation :p

its all about the money

Assalamualaikum!

So its been aaaaages since my last post ay?
Its already 2014 and I am already married. See, i told you, its been ages :)

A little update about me, I have finished my hospital posting and now I am posted to Besut for my primary care posting. I am married for 48 days (and I lost my wedding ring on day 41 of marriage). I live with my husband in Kuala Terengganu on weekends and live on my own during weekdays in Besut (so I am an amphibia?) I have a new profession now. I am a housewife eventhough I'm working. Part-time housewife i would say? But on weekends, I'm a full-time housewife. Yayy a dream came true :)..the weather in Kuala Terengganu is very good today. Officially end of monsoon season. So selaku suri rumah, sangat mengujakan untuk basuh baju dan sidai baju.

I'm loving my life right now. Still juggling in between professions (Allah's servant, a daughter, a dentist, a wife, a daie etc etc) but hey, everyone went through that.

My husband gave me homeworks. And one of them is to update this blog. So task completed, dear husband! Till the next post :) --->isteri yang taat bukan?kwis kwis kwis
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Haruslah tidak elok tulis belog hanya untuk update berita diri sendiri kan? Mari menjadi dewasa dengan mengupdate isu semasa.

Latest one, isu kenaikan harga. Saya sejujurnya belum merasa sangatlah kenaikan harga ni sebab saya jenis orang yang spend tak tengok harga. Bila check balance dalam bank, eh dah tinggal sikit tapi still within budget so saya pun macam tenang je. Just bought a car yang tak sampai-sampai lagi ni. mungkin bila dah bawak kereta sendiri, beban itu akan terasa. Mungkin nanti dah beranak pinak beban itu akan lebih terasa. So basically i have no comment. Tapi dalam KT ni saya rasa ridiculouslah harga rumah sewa, harga tanah dan harga barang dapur. Ikang adalah sangat mahal kat sini walaupun ini adalah negeri yang makanan rujinya ialah ikang.

Walaubagaimanapun, sebagai persediaan menghadapi musim kenaikan harga barang, marilah belajar berbelanja dengan jimat cermat. Mungkin saya bertuah mempunyai suami yang sangat otak finance kot. So nafsu berbelanja saya tu macam tidak serancak dahulu. Tengok barang macam malas-malas je nak beli. Nanti suami suruh tulis dalam buku perbelanjaan harian aka apps money manager (yang sebenarnya, nak catat tu yang malas hoheh)..bak kata mak saudara saya, kita kurangkan perbelanjaan untuk gaya hidup. Bezakan keperluan vs kemahuan. Utamakan saving dan investment. Investment pun bukan untuk dunia sahaja malahan investment untuk akhirat iaitu dengan bersedekah. Harta kita yang sebenarnya ialah harta yang disedekahkan, kan? kan? kan?

Dan kepada yang bakal melangsungkan perkahwinan tu, silalah berjaga-jaga dalam berbelanja. Please do not end up dengan hutang keliling pinggang. Hidup baru nak bermula, maka mulakannya dengan zero hutang. Alhamdulillah saya melangsungkan perkahwinan tanpa hutang. Saya mula kerja bulan 4. Kahwin bulan 11. So saya hanya guna gaji 7 bulan yang sempat saya simpan bersama dengan dana tambahan daripada keluarga. Total cost tak sampai 15,000. You want to know how? Ask me now! Ecehh bajet perunding kewanganlah pulak puan dhuha ni.

Formula dia senang je, 65% untuk venue dan makanan (wajib), 20% untuk hadiah (sunat), 15% untuk diri sendiri (harus)..So apa-apa perbelanjaan untuk kepuasan sendiri seperti fotografi, make-up, baju, pelamin semua tu mestilah dikurangkan  sebanyak yang boleh. Sebabnya, tujuan diadakan majlis perkahwinan ni bukan untuk diri sendiri tapi untuk orang lain. Maka usahlah syok sendiri. Doorgift pula simple-simple cukuplah. Yang penting isinya bukan bekas/dekorasinya. Sometimes people spent too much just on decorations padahal in the end semua tu nanti masuk bakul sampah juga. Same goes to kad jemputan. I asked my sister to design and print the cards for me. My cousin in-law did my make up and my second cousin became our photographer. My mom and my aunts did my hantaran. We packed the doorgifts together. Lepas tu on the wedding day, my friends did the photo booth corner (itu merupakan plan last minute yang sangat berjaya, thanks so much kawan-kawan!). I planned to do the pelamin by myself but obviously I did not have ample of time to do that as I am working in Terengganu. Baju kahwin pula hanya ada sepasang disebabkan majlis sebelah saya sehari je. Nikah dan kenduri on the same day. Baju nikah tu jugaklah baju walimah. Pada saya macam tak berbaloi nak sewa baju lain untuk walimah sebab nak sewanya beratuslah jugak tapi pakai tak sampai sehari pun huhuiii satu kerugian yang amat besar kurasakan. Now baju nikah saya tu bolehlah dipakai di hari raya aidilfitri nanti *provided that saya masih slim dan tidak mengandung di waktu itu* Untuk sebelah pihak lelaki pula, dapat baju sponsor daripada pakcik kepada encik suami, alhamdulillah. Saya juga teringin nak ada geng kompang tapi nak sewa geng kompang area rumah saya adalah mahal sungguh. Maka instead, guna audio kompang pun jadilah >_<

So kalau saya boleh jimat, anda boleh juga. Malah anda boleh jimat lebih banyak daripada saya kalau anda boleh bergotong royong buat pelamin sendiri atau tak buat pelamin langsung.

Majlis perkahwinan saya adalah hasil kerja keras semua orang yang terlibat. Disebabkan kerja keras mereka juga, saya dapat jimat dengan banyaknya dan hasilnya, saya kini sedang melalui alam rumahtangga tanpa beban hutang yang unnecessary (saya cakap camtu sebab saya baru je beli kereta secara hutang tapi i would call that hutang yang necessary eheh)..Dan yang paling penting sebenarnya ialah Allah akan memudahkan urusan hambaNya yang mahu mendirikan rumahtangga. Pasang niat yang lurus, berusaha, berdoa dan bertawakkal kepada Allah.

hmm rasa nak tulis-tulis lagi tapi next post lah. nanti abundant dan comot sangat semua topik sumbat dalam satu posting kan? kan? kan?

Nah, satu je gambar kahwin :p
venue: kampung encik suami di chinchin, melaka

First posting

Assalamualaikum wbt

Today I would like to share my experience in my first posting. (Forgive me this is going to be wordy no photos at all)

Basically, as a first year dental officer or known as FYDO, you'll be posted in different specialities. The duration n specialty might differ according to the state you are posted to.

Here in terengganu, all specialties are available and located at kuala terengganu whether in general hospital or somewhere just nearby it. Below is the list of postings you will get in terengganu.

1. Oral surgery, oral medicine and oral pathology (4 months in GH)

2. Community dentistry (4 months in the given district u r posted to)

3. Paediatric dentistry (1 month in GH)

4. Orthodontic (1 month in Klinik Pergigian Jalan Sultan Mahmud (KPJSM) located inside GH)

5. Periodontic (1 month in KPJSM)

6. Restorative dentistry (1 month in KP Bukit Payong)

Ok that's all I can tell and it is subjected to change.

My first posting was in paeds dept. And I'll only be posted to district clinic/hosp at the end of my FYDOship.

Before I entered dentistry, I had the ambition to become a specialist in paeds because I thought I love kids. That happened to be just my delusion. I found kids were very difficult to handle and I just hate their tantrums and childish manners (come on la dhuha, they are children after all)

Therefore I stopped dreaming of becoming a children specialist. I didnt hv any passion in dentistry and so I felt demotivated to specialise in anything. I thought I'd just become a general dentist or perhaps join admin department and just do the admin stuff.

Endodontic? I love endo but I cant stay too long by the dental chair just looking at small root orifice. I remember during my final year of dentistry I did root canal treatment (RCT) almost every week and I had a really sore back for months. My ergonomics is really bad when it comes to RCT.

Surgery? I love surgery but standing too long gave me backache too. Plus too much to study hoheh. And a busy department. Does not suit a gastric and low blood pressure patient like me.

Public health? Would love too. I can get involve in policy making and manage things at national level. However studying public health is a painful experience. Boring and dry subjects.

Those are the 3 specialties I would consider. But now paeds has entered the list. My paeds posting was a wonderful experience. Alhamdulillah Allah sent me to terengganu and placed me in paeds as my first rotation. At first I was like "oh no!!!! Why paeds???" But after day 1  i began to love not only paeds but dentistry as a whole.

While in paeds, I learned a lot on how to manage children. Was difficult at first but slowly it became a tropical breeze under a sunny day by the crystal blue beach (sorry hyperbola di situ) The staff are very wonderful and helpful too. Specialist is super nice. Permanent officers are super nice. Dental surgeon assistants are also super nice. We are all like 1 family and I just love being with them and working with them as one team until it hurts me to finally leave the dept and move to the other dept. I would love to come back and work there if given a chance.

I thank Allah for surrounding me with positive working environment and inspiring people that influence my positive attitude towards my working life. I really like it here but i constantly remind myself that things wont always go as smooth as this. Someday I'll go through bumpy and windy roads. Just keep that in my mind.

I like working in paeds because its not too busy and not too relax. Just nice. Besides I love working in hospital setting. I love ward rounds and I also love surgery. In paeds, surgery is done once a week with maximum of 3 patients for each surgery day. Heaven and not too painful aye? Ward rounds on the other hand depend on how many pts were admitted to ward including emergency cases. So being a pedodontist makes you feel more doctorish. Huihui..

Other than that you got to do other dental stuff like fillings, tooth extraction, root canal treatment etc. But just for patients aged 17 years and below. Small working area because children are small obviously. Their mouth just fit nicely with my little fingers. I found children are quite comfortable with me since I'm small and cute just like them (perasan sebentar)..but its true. Adults often make fun of my petite size by saying I wont be able to pull their teeth out. Its partially true. I can pull their teeth out but they have to bear with me for 15-30 minutes for 1 single tooth. Then i'll have sore arm the whole day. Therefore just let me treat children. Pulling out children's teeth is just like petik kacang di kebun sayur opah.

Working hours are just like office hour n quite flexible. Study period for specialization is between 3-4 years. Scope of study quite big but I like that because  then I will not become easily bored just to study on one specific specialty. In conclusion I would seriously consider to master in paeds and I am. Cant wait to sit for pre-master exam or whatever they called it.

somebody who used to hate dentistry;
Dr. Dhuha
XOXO

P/s whoever prayed for my enjoyable working experience, thank u so much. Only Allah can reward u :)

shoes

yesterday i took some time to look at my shoes
and my thought goes beyond just the physical look of the shoes
ever heard of "try putting yourself in her shoes"?
or something like "walk a mile in her shoes"?

i wondered why shoes?
to feel what others feel, must we walk in her shoes?
why not a dress or a pair of pants perhaps?
or cant we just walk in our shoes
which have the same size, shape and brand with the others?

then i walked with my shoes on
walked as far as i want to
i walked on the road, on the grass, on the tiles
i went up the stairs, down the stairs and took an elevator

today i change my shoes
it is quite a new pair of shoes
i do what i did the day before
and it definitely feels different

now i understand
shoes are not just for display
its not just the matter of wearing them
but to walk in them

that is why we must put ourselves in other's shoes
for us to understand others
and to feel what it is like to be them

shoes came from different materials
made by different ways
they can be factory made or hand made
they came with different size and shape
and different care instructions

shoes meant a lot to people
they protect the feet
they can affect your posture
a whole day walking in a wrong pair of shoes
can make you suffer until a few days after
old shoes wont feel as comfortable as a new ones
but old shoes wont give the same excitement as new shoes

to people
the shoes they are walking in
have different stories
give different feelings
and bring different meaning

Even we wear the same size of shoes
the feeling is different
Scholl size 4 wont be as same as Vincci size 4
and Vincci size 4 wont be as same as Vincci size 8

dhuha
east coast malaysia
29/5/13
22:46

[rebel mode: on]

buka FB, so much negative aura. benci kaum lain, benci kaum sendiri, benci parti lain, benci kerajaan, benci pembangkang, benci SPR, itu tak kena ini tak kena, so many complaints. i cannot take it anymore, i decided to run. sebelum saya terkena virus benci, i better equip myself with love and compassion. sebelum saya menjadi manusia yang gemar menyalahkan, i better make myself better. it is true internet gives you more freedom to seek information but too much info will just make you confuse and PLUS too much berita-berita berbaur fitnah dan tidak pasti kesahihan cerita. even pictures and videos can tell lies nowadays. maka seperti pemuda al-kahfi, i am going to run to my cave.

i want to live in real word
and set myself free from any negativity
i am going to my cave
and doing my own sweet thing

i will be back
with more positivity
and i'll make it contagious
i hate hatred
and i just want spread love
and for that,
i need my own time

may Allah fill my heart with love and compassion
may Allah give peace in my mind
may Allah surround me with positive people
may Allah assist me towards positive changes
may Allah bless me and grant me His jannah

ameen ya rabb.

delusion

danger is coming on our way
everyday
but the deluded people
because they are so deluded
the warning is ignored
the warning became a joke
something to laugh at

the signs of danger are becoming clear
so clear that you can even touch them
but delusion making them blind
they refused to touch them

is this delusion?
or deception?
or is it just ego?
for personal reason?
or for general reason?

i see my world spinning
the light is taken away from me
the burden is too heavy
so i just fall asleep

i wake up
and today is jumaah
let's recite al-kahf
with pure intention
and with sincere prayer
may all of us
be protected from the lies
from being deceived
and from walking and staying in delusion

my prophet once said
"ask Allah for protection from al-masih ad-dajjal"
in this world of confusion
i believe wherever or whoever he is
he is working around us
making its way to victory

let us spread love, my brother and sisters

i love PAS
i love IKRAM
i love ABIM
i love ILUVISLAM/INTELEK
i love ISMA


due to my awareness of different jemaah in malaysia, and my high curiosity, i jalan2 cari makan nak cuba jemaah itu ini. i've been in all those jemaah before and currently in one of them and i love them all.

and i love other jemaah too like HALUAN, Tabligh etc. etc..UMNO dikira jemaah ke? i wont count it as jemaah but i love it too because i believe dalam UMNO pun ada orang yang betul2 ikhlas berjuang like my grandfather. i hope throughout my whole life i won't speak bad about them unless they go kufr. i hope i dont spread hatred among them. i wish i can spread love in between them. love and only love.

If we disagree  let us argue in a good way and not fighting each other. why must we spread hatred? our situation is already worse and why must we make it worsen? Remember, Allah will not grant us true victory if we are dividing.

i keep reminding myself, jemaah hanyalah alat. akidah kita islam, bukannya jemaah. at times, i disagree with my jemaah but i don't have to agree with everything for me to be in that jemaah. we all have our own mind and we think differently. i choose which jemaah i can work best and has the least conflict with my own thinking. since we all think differently that's why Allah gave us the heart and placed our iman/faith inside the heart so that when all of us think differently, we still can unite at heart.

at times i disagree with other jemaah too but that is not a valid reason for me to hate them. that is also not a valid reason for me to badmouth or tell others to hate that jemaah too. we need each other. try to think as if we are in one family. the bond will never break no matter how hard we fought. we still need each other. therefore don't waste your time in fighting each other. i believe there will come a day when we will seek help among us and insya Allah we will unite soon. pray for unity among all the muslims across the world.

saya personally rasa sekarang ni masalah kita bukanlah corruption, crime ape sume tu. tapi masalah paling besar sekarang ialah soal akidah dan ukhuwwah. bila akidah tak kuat, maka terjadilah kefasikan. bila ukhuwwah rendah, pun terjadilah kefasikan. maka, marilah berukhuwwah merentasi jemaah/parti kerana ukhuwwah teras kegemilangan. dan marilah selamatkan akidah ummah.

I ♥ Terengganu

Eh? Haha bunyinya macam dah tak nak tinggalkan Terengganu.

But seriously, saya tak kisah untuk menetap di Terengganu. Saya suka suasananya, persekitarannya, orangnya and the best things is that it reminds me so much of Dunedin!

Di Dunedin, ada pantai. Small town. Takde traffic jam. Suasananya laid back. Sume orang relax je. Orangnya friendly. Just nice la KT. I like. In fact dulu2 masa elective kat KT pn dah in love dengan KT n pernah berangan nak kerja dekat Terengganu. So dream came true la ni.

Satu je tak suka. Jauh sangat dengan rumah. Duduk sini betul2 buat saya rasa macam saya duduk kat Dunedin. Nak balik kampung halaman kena check tiket flight or tiket bas, kena saving duit. huhu. Mujurlah ada makcik dekat sini dan duduk dengan makcik, so tak rasa homesick sangat pun.

At the moment kawan-kawan sekerja yang perempuan semuanya asal Terengganu. So mereka semuanya duduk rumah masing-masing. While yang non-muslims stay with each other campur laki perempuan. Makanya sangat bersyukur ada makcik di sini kalau tak merana sensorang nak cari tempat tinggal.

Setelah agak berminggu tinggal di sini, saya dah tahu kosa kata rakyat terengganu sikit2. Saya juga dah biasa makan nasi lemak lauk ikan. Tapi saya belum biasa makan lauk dekat kafe lagi. Banyak sangat lauk ikan! Gulai ikan pulak tu. Saya kurang gemar ikan. Dan kalau dimasak gulai, lagilah kurang gemar. Tapi saya makan je kalau xde choice. Kalau ada choice lain, memang babailah lauk ikan except ikan keli or asam pedas ikan pari. Ikan pari masak apa pun i like ^__^

To jimat duit, i always menempek dengan nurse dekat dalam pantry. Mereka bawa banyak makanan. Pastu mesti offer saya makan. hehe..tapi kalau nampak banyak lauk ikan, saya makan kat luar la. kuikuikui..

Seperti Dunedin, Terengganu juga xde mall. I mean mega shopping mall. Mall paling besar pun Giant dan Mydin. Mcm kat Dunedin, New World dan Countdown. Itu kategori hypermarket la. Sangat bagus kerana dapat menjimatkan duit saya. Kalau nak habis duit banyak sangat pun dekat kedai batikla kan. Sebab batik kan mahal.

Yang paling saya suka, pantailah! Kalau tengah ward round, pandang luar je nampak pantai. Nice. Tapi kat klinik tak nampak pantai sebab klinik ground floor dan bilik saya takde tingkap.

All in all, Terengganu is a really nice place to stay. I would consider to menetap di sini :)

my first posting

Assalamualaikum my lovely readers! Mesti korang tertanya-tanyakan apa perkembangan terbaru saya sejak balik dari NZ ni *sila muntah hijau kebiruan*

Alhamdulillah setelah hampir 4 bulan menunggu kerja daripada kerajaan, akhirnya kini saya bergelar penjawat awam yang terikat dengan akta-akta serta mempunyai banyak jenis cuti dan banyak jenis elaun juga. sila minta duit raya dengan saya nanti only if u manage to grab my attention *sila muntah kuning kehijauan pula*

Ok sekarang saya akan terangkan how did i get here, as pegawai pergigian. teknikal sikitlah ye. please bear with me. if this is not related to you, please move to another blogger in your list-to-read :)

1. Setelah pulang dari luar negara, jika anda pelajar tajaan JPA, anda dikehendaki report kepulangan anda kepada JPA. boleh dilakukan secara online mahupun pergi sahaja melawat mereka di pejabat mereka di Putrajaya. Ada form yang kena isi.
2. Call Malaysian Dental Coucil (MDC) to book an appointment for registration. Untuk register dengan council tersebut memang kena buat appointment sebab nanti akan diberi briefing jugak. Selepas register, anda akan diberi nombor pendaftaran.
3. Print out borang 'Permohonan Jawatan' from website Suruhanjaya Penjawat Awam (SPA). Then isi. Boleh hantar pos or pergi office mereka kat putrajaya. I did mine online so its easier. I submitted all the documents required online too. Then u have to call them just to make sure they got your application processed. Call jugak untuk tanya dan book tarikh interview. Dont just sit and wait. kalau dalam seminggu dua tak dengar apa-apa, just call them. 
4. Register with Kementerian Kesihatan Malaysia (KKM/MOH). They need your MDC registration number so you MUST register with MDC first, before KKM. eh..tiba-tiba speaking english pulak. Boleh print out KKM punya Borang Maklumat Diri (download from their website). They require some documents so just bring all of them to KKM  including Borang Maklumat Diri.
5. Then you're done with applications and registration. Next you just have to wait and prepare for the interview. The interview is quite simple. Just chit chatting and they will ask some questions on KKM. But it depends on the interviewer too. I did not get any clinical questions but some of my friends did. Usually the interview will take 10-15 minutes but if you really like to talk, it can goes up to 30 mins to 1 hour, really!
6. After the interview you will get offer letter from SPA. They will also send some forms to be filled in including borang medical checkup. In the offer, they ask us to wait for calling letter from KKM.
7. In my case, after almost 4 months (this depends on the kekosongan jawatan dan tempat), the calling letter from KKM came. asking me to attend Program Transformasi Minda (TPM). it is a new program and it is used to be called 'induction'. It is more or less like induction but just for 5 days minus the exam (mind u we still hv exam but not as complicated as the previous batch. no time allocated for studying also and carries only 20% from the overall module)
8. We got our placement result during the PTM/induction. I heard many are sent to Sabah Sarawak. And I felt so relieved when I got Terengganu. Although its quite faraway from home, I have 2 aunts living in Terengganu and my grandparents live in Kelantan so I can visit them often hopefully. 
9. PTM/induction ends on friday and you are required to start working on the next monday. In my case, Sunday is Monday in Terengganu. My PTM was in Penang. So Friday night i took a flight home. Arrived  midnight. Saturday morning malas-malas kemas barang. still in denial. Afternoon went to neighbour's wedding. 3.30 pm baru start packing. 5.30 pergi airport. 7.45 flight to Terengganu. Penat sungguh rasanya tak cukup rehat, fly sana sini. But you can claim for your journey to PTM and to the place where you're posted. *pheww*
10. ok tu saja. enjoy your working life!

Ok tamat bab teknikal. Bab luahan rasa nak tulis kat sini ke next post eh? ahax tiba-tiba malas nak menyambung tulisan. Till the next post! Sorry ^___^

Jodoh 2 + paeds

ehem ekskiusmi. ini bukan entry jiwang dua insan. ini sambungan drpd entry Jodoh yang ditulis pada tahun 2012.

Benci boleh bertukar jadi rindu kemudian cinta? uhuks geli sedikit di situ


Saya boleh testify bahawa kenyataan tersebut benar.

Ini kisah benci yang semakin hilang. Rindu yang semakin menebal. Dan cinta yang semakin berputik. it's ok. you can vomit if you want.

hampir 4 bulan saya terpisah daripada dia semenjak kami diijabkabulkan akhir tahun yang lepas. Rasa sungguh bebas sebebas-bebasnya. Seronok dan teruja. Tapi dalam masa 4 bulan tu jugak, selalu teringat kat dia.

Sebulan berlalu, saya tertanya-tanya manalah dia ni.

Dua bulan berlalu, saya tertunggu-tunggu dia datang pujuk saya ke, apa ke.

Tiga bulan berlalu, saya resah kalau dia dah lupakan saya.

Saya sendiri hairan kenapa saya rasa rindu. Sebelum ni, rasa rindu tu memang jauh panggang dari api la. Mustahil sungguh nak rindu-rinduan layu-layuan begitu. Saya tanya pada hati, mungkinkah cinta telah tiba? yelah kan, orang tua-tua cakap huhu kesian orang tua jadi mangsa kalau rindu maknanya sayang.

Hampir 4 bulan, akhirnya saya sendiri cari dia. Dan dia sedia mengadakan 'comeback' dalam hidup saya. Setelah berminggu-minggu bersama dia, saya yakin cinta telah hadir. Dan kini saya sedang bahagia bersamanya ^___^

Alhamdulillah, dentistry, I am finally in love with you!

Tak sia-sia saya bersabar dalam memupuk cinta dalam bidang ini. Akhirnya rasa yang saya rasakan macam mustahil nak hadir tu kini dah say hello kepada saya. Saya harap ini bukan hangat-hangat tahi ayam ataupun suam-suam teh O. Sekarang ni tugas saya adalah untuk me'maintain'kan pula rasa cinta tersebut. Semoga Allah kurniakan saya keikhlasan dalam bekerja. Ameen~

I know it's too early to declare love sebab baru mula kerja je kot. but isn't it a good thing to have a good start? kalau dulu berharap selepas tamat kontrak 10 tahun, nak berhenti kerja, sekarang berharap ingin bekerja sampai hujung nyawa.

nak update sikit boleh? Apa? tak boleh? Hello, ini belog saya, suka hati sayalah. tak perlu minta izin pun tapi saje nak bersopan santun dengan pembaca yang dah lama tidak bersua di alam maya.

Alhamdulillah I started with paeds. I used to hate paeds but now i'm loving it. Boss kami sungguh cool dan great. Kami dengan boss macam kawan. Mungkin itu faktor yang buat saya semakin suka paeds jugak. Sebab bila anda ada boss yang best, anda boleh tanya macam-macam soalan tanpa kena marah. Boss pula suka jawab semua soalan dengan penuh keterujaan. Boss juga suka tanya kami soalan yang kalau kami tak dapat jawab takdela kami kena marah. Tak pernah boss muka masam dengan kami. I like.

Apa? kenapa saya tak suka paeds? Sebab saya tak suka budaklah, obvious kot. Yeke?

Apa? saya sungguh tidak kewanitaan dan keibuan kerana tidak suka budak2? Mari saya cerita. Saya sangat suka budak-budak. Sungguh. Tapi budak-budak yang ceria, yang ketawa comel. Bukan budak yang meraung dan throw tantrum. To play with kids, I have no problem. Saya memang suka main dengan budak-budak. Tapi untuk suruh budak bukak mulut sambil kita masukkan jari dalam mulut, korek gigi dan tampal gigi, cucuk sana sini dan cabut gigi mereka, THEY WONT LAUGH OR GIGGLE BUT THEY THROW TANTRUM i tell you.   itu yang saya tak suka. First, sakit telinga. Second, kesian kat dorg. Third, saya rasa saya macam pengganas. They made me feel like I am such a bad person in the world. The way they stare at you..fuuhh sepertinya kamu raksasa yang jahat.

Memang ada kanak-kanak yang super duper good dan cooperative tapi tak banyak. Sejak 2 minggu duduk dalam paeds ni, hari-hari tengok patient menangis, menjerit dan lari. ada patient 5 years old mencarut, meludah dan menendang perut saya. Ada yang siap cakap "nanti aku dah besar aku cari mung, aku bunuh mung!" scary mary dapat ugutan bunuh daripada seorang kanak-kanak 5 tahun.

Mencabar. Dan perlukan kesabaran yang tinggi. Serta kena pandai psiko kanak-kanak. memang bab nak psiko kanak-kanak saya fail la. sebab tu saya tak suka paeds. saya bukan tak suka kanak-kanak secara total. tapi saya cuma tak suka paeds. Behaviour managemeny sangat mencabar.

Namun begitu sekarang saya suka paeds. Saya suka cabarannya. Tak kisahlah kanak-kanak tu benci saya, nak bunuh saya ke. They're special in their own way and they can make me smile. Sebab walau macam mana pun budak tu punya perangai, kita akan senyum jugak, tak ambil hati, tak sakit hati dan senang nak maafkan sebab mereka cumalah kanak-kanak yang plain dan innocent.

During paeds ni jugak, saya banyak jumpa pesakit yang istimewa. Syndrome Down terutamanya. Saya tak pernah jumpa kanak-kanak down syndrome secara rapat dan bila dapat jumpa mereka, mereka ni lovely sangat. Walaupun dah nangis-nangis atas dental chair, lepas dah habis treatment mereka boleh senyum dan salam kita. Mungkin jugak saya akan specialize in 'special needs' sebab saya suka dengan pesakit yang 'istimewa'. Golongan-golongan (kanak-kanak istimewa dan kanak-kanak biasa) ini sukar untuk diuruskan but once u did, level of satisfaction dia hanya Allah yang tahu.

Saya jugak suka buat paeds sebab bidangnya luas daripada speciality yang lain. macam medical punya paeds jugaklah kan, involve anything under the sun. selain tu, boleh masuk OT jugak--saya suka sangat masuk OT. kalau macam rasa tak larat nak handle pesakit kat klinik, saya suka lari pegi OT. sebab kat OT, pesakit sume tidur ^__^

Other speciality yang saya look forward ialah public health. tak payah jumpa pesakit. hehe. tak pun jadi admin je.

ok maaf entry macam rojak. terpaksa gabung 2 tajuk sebab malas nak asingkan. hoho. namun tajuknya takdelah lari jauh kan? kan?

Assalamualaikum dan selamat mengundi!