to be matured,we MUST be able to LISTEN to what people are saying bout u and ANALYSE it urself..not crying loudly infront of others denying the facts and rejecting to listen more..and BZ bout finding others fault..
yes,for this reason u hv to be strong in a sense that u hv to accept all the facts no matter in what way they come. because when it happens, its one way of God teaching you the lesson for you to know urself better by letting u know whats wrong with u..
u shouldnt point to others when they are complaining bout you. improve yourself first, then u can speak for yourself.
you shouldnt be hiding urself as to run away from what u've created since the beginning.
do not say others as childish when u urself is childish but u dont realize it.ITS FUNNY..and worth to laugh at.
somehow its painful to face all this. but believe me its part of growing up. its a maturing process..its what makes u growup. its a LESSON..not a BURDEN...its a FACT..not a MAN-MADE STORIES...its not bout BEING BETRAYED BY FRIENDSHIP but its about a TRUE FRINEDSHIP to value..true friends will straight away tell u what u've done wrong. but the other kind of friend will only tell u the lies(all the nice things bout u)..then how can u growup huh?
there are some things in you that u wont know but the people around u can tell u bout.that is what friends meant to be.
love your friends more then you love your things. because things can be bought outside,but friendship?? think bout it...
do not expect people to take care of your heart..because sometimes they need to break your heart in order to make u a better person..heart-break will heal and its not that bad as compared to bad attitude that last-long..and to only know it when u grow old will make u a grumpy granny.
do not act childishly. be a mature person. running away wont solve the problem.
as for me, i prefer to make people cry because of my words rather than telling all the nice things for them and spoil them. i have the right to do so. but why am i still in silence. because u keep running away n refuse to hear to what we say anymore.u said u've heard enough.we understand that its a burden for u. so we are trying to tolerate with you.
believe me, i have great friends who tell me to my face how childish i was..how annoying i was...how selfish i was..how distracting i was..how 'potpetpotpet' i was..how pushy i was..do u see all that in me now???
its because i have a bunch of great friends during my schooldays but u?? no one dares to tell what's wrong with u...its not bragging..its the truth..they dont live with you for years..Rasulullah once said, to know your friend, u hv to stay and be with her for at leats 3 days. and we've been together for more than that. and we do know more than others and we kept it to ourselves n trying to tell u..is it a betrayal?
shoot i've to write it all here hoping that u read. again its not betrayal. its an advice which cant be told verbally. i want to but i just cant..because it will bleed u to death. by saying it here, i hope u can think bout it rather than screaming and crying out loud. and i WANT others to take note of this also. its what my heart is saying all this while when i keep silent. my SILENCE doesnt mean i agree with u..my SILENCE means i'm thinking..i cant read people's heart..i'm weak at dat,i admit..but somehow i can read people's mind. and i was digesting all your actions and your words and relate it with what's on your mind..and slowly i started relating it with ur soul n i guess i'm learning how to read people's heart now..and now i feel like i can speak but u are just not here to listen.
you know what,its not only ur mind was distracted but all of us..we were all thinking of you...wondering where did u go..what did u feel..how can we help u to deal with all this..but u dont want to go thru all the hardships with us.we do think bout u all the time. n i believe u too. but u forget to think how we feel..its u who is the most heartbroken now..u dont care bout what we feel..its u who needs time to heal..u dont care bout the others who also need time to figure out how to help u.u always jump into a conclusion which is not true. u blame others even for simple mistakes.
"i am the center of the attention. i am the victim. they are the one who betray me." these are all in ur mind.right?
we love u BUT we dont want to spoil u. is that a conditional friendship?
should u wait until u lose all your friends then only u appreciate their presence?
jgn sudah terhantuk baru nak tergadah.
p/s: batinku amat terseksa kerana terpaksa memendam hal ini.its been stacked up in my heart n starting to build a tembok besar china i.e. perasaan benci..benci itu amat membencikan.aku xsuke ade feeling itu. i need to let it go before its getting worse. sesungguhnye benci itu drdp syaitan. maka harus buang benci itu jauh2 sebelum dijangkiti penyakit hati yg lebih truk.peringatan buat semua.
p/s: siape yg trase,meet me after u feel ready to listen. i've still hv some pieces in my heart to tell u.
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